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Almost 30

I've been meaning to post for a while. In 2 weeks I'm turning 30 and I feel really anxious about it. I feel like it's this deadline for me to get my life together and I'm not going to be able to meet it. Now, I know this is in my head and that it's an arbitrary milestone. All the things that are bothering me- being single, not having money in the bank, not loving my job, my weight- just seem so less ominous for a 29 year old than a 30 year old. The single part bothers me the most. I'm reading a self help book. For God's sake, that is soooo 30. I feel old. I feel like a failure. I feel so.... Inadequate.
I didn't really feel like making a big deal out of my bday this year. I thought so anyway, but I kept getting pressured to nail it down and send an invite. Now that the time and place is picked, I've been told to stop trying to throw my own party and that my friends will take care of everything. I have a lot of really good friends and I appreciate they're trying to make me feel loved. That helps me feel less alone.

I have had 2 good dates with a guy named Nate. I actually feel like I like him. He is very conscientious. He brought me an orchid on our first date. How cute is that.

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seriesfinale
Jul. 20th, 2012 11:40 pm (UTC)
Is Nate the toilet plugged date? (Yes, I'm just reading months of LJ now)
ange420
Aug. 6th, 2012 08:35 am (UTC)
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nope. That guy never called me again after that, but I think I had already set up my first date with Nate when I clogged the other dude's toilet.

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